by Gina Agsalon (April 19, 2003)
Funny how I complain …
… whenever people laugh at me, malign me and insult me.
Funny how I complain …
… whenever people misunderstand me, question me, do not dare trust or
believe in me.
Funny how I complain …
… whenever I feel deprived at times when I decide to follow God’s will rather than my whims.
Funny how I complain …
… whenever I see people abusing my kindness and feel stupid enough
to let myself be abused by these people.
Funny how I complain …
… whenever God doesn’t answer my prayer the way I want Him to answer it.
Funny how I complain …
… whenever people make life difficult for me, circumstances make me a victim of it
and my weaknesses limit me from doing what everybody expects of me.
Funny … isn’t it?
Funny how a God so big …
… would choose to set His powers aside to prove to me that He knows what I’m feeling.
Funny how a God so big …
… allowed Himself to be scorned, laughed at, spit upon, kicked and killed by the very creatures He lovingly molded with His own hands.
Funny how a God so big …
… who healed so many people was not shown compassion at that time when He needed it the most.
Funny how a God so big …
… who had shown great mercy towards sinners was not shown mercy during the most difficult moment of His life.
Funny how a God so big …
… who never experienced pain, hurt, suffering and death decided to experience them in order for me to experience life without pain, hurt, suffering and death eternally.
Funny how a God so big …
… who loved me enough to give all I have right now and gave His best for me was not given my best and not loved with my whole heart, mind, body and soul.
It’s funny … isn’t it?
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Gina Agsalon was a pastoral carer as well as a professor of Theology at De La Salle – College of Saint Benilde. Aside from giving talks, she also guided people in discerning their career and state of life. She served as an Awesome Kids ministry teacher & Bulletin contributor/proofreader while heading the Formation Ministry of Feast Southwoods Mall Biñan. Rather than considering herself a seasoned writer, she described herself as a seasonal one since she only wrote when suddenly struck by divine inspiration. She published her book of poems entitled Musings: Inspirations from a Non-Writer shortly before she died in February 2022.